PolarizeMe Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 Now that I’ve sort of established that I have made a presence here for the first time in over a year, almost 2 years, I guess I should explain to the TOSTers/TRFers that vaguely remember who I was my absence...or rather the reason I forced myself to leave this place.There’s too many factors, but it all boils down to 4 things (5 if we add personal struggles I battled with for most of 2018 that reached a critical mass). 1) At the very end of 2017, I landed an internship of sorts at an underground venue (loosely speaking) out in Brooklyn and did that for the first 8 months of 2018 after which they asked me “Do you wanna work here?” to which “Yes.” was the only answer I’d settle for. Been there ever since, and it’s pretty cool and a job that’s “totally me”. And I have no intention to leave unless they ask me to (i.e. fire me).2) It didn’t seem right for me to stay here when Rush is no longer a focal point for me. If I’m completely honest, they haven’t since 2015. 3) Tying in w/the above, as a result common ground (at least how I saw it) got narrower and narrower to point it became routine to even be here. Sad cause given the benefit of time away, and from what I remembered before I left, the one thing I did like and missed about TRF was I genuinely liked the few people I did talk to and sort of became part a sub-community of...basically TOST.4) Simply put, I felt I was at a state of stagnation and needed a major shift in my life. That job was one push, but also I needed a major shift in music tastes (ask me what I listen to, I’m almost not the same person anymore give or take 3-4 bands pre-2015 I was heavily into), groups I associate myself with, etc. It’s paid off, I think. I’ve carved a path I’ve created myself and on my own terms. I don’t think most can say they’ve became friends with people who’ve created art that they admire and/or means something to them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PolarizeMe Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 (edited) Now that I’ve sort of established that I have made a presence here for the first time in over a year, almost 2 years, I guess I should explain to the TOSTers/TRFers that vaguely remember who I was my absence...or rather the reason I forced myself to leave this place.There’s too many factors, but it all boils down to 4 things (5 if we add personal struggles I battled with for most of 2018 that reached a critical mass). 1) At the very end of 2017, I landed an internship of sorts at an underground venue (loosely speaking) out in Brooklyn and did that for the first 8 months of 2018 after which they asked me “Do you wanna work here?” to which “Yes.” was the only answer I’d settle for. Been there ever since, and it’s pretty cool and a job that’s “totally me”. And I have no intention to leave unless they ask me to (i.e. fire me).2) It didn’t seem right for me to stay here when Rush is no longer a focal point for me. If I’m completely honest, they haven’t since 2015. 3) Tying in w/the above, as a result common ground (at least how I saw it) got narrower and narrower to point it became routine to even be here. Sad cause given the benefit of time away, and from what I remembered before I left, the one thing I did like and missed about TRF was I genuinely liked the few people I did talk to and sort of became part a sub-community of...basically TOST.4) Simply put, I felt I was at a state of stagnation and needed a major shift in my life. That job was one push, but also I needed a major shift in music tastes (ask me what I listen to, I’m almost not the same person anymore give or take 3-4 bands pre-2015 I was heavily into), groups I associate myself with, etc. It’s paid off, I think. I’ve carved a path I’ve created myself and on my own terms. I don’t think most can say they’ve became friends with people who’ve created art that they admire and/or means something to them.So why did I return after being away for so long? Honestly, curiosity to see if TRF changed in dynamics and personalities while I was gone and also because 2020 would mark the 10th anniversary I joined TRF and I wanted to be there for that. IDK if this “return” will be short term, long term, somewhere in between, but I made a promise that I will never go back to how I was before I initially left TRF that’s for sure. I rather just spend most of my time doing anything outside of sitting in a laptop and mingling on a forum, you know? Edited December 25, 2019 by PolarizeMe 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr. Not Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 (edited) ^ that’s where we’re all at right now i think, growing out of the forum/web presence while it used to be such a big part of our lives. i miss ghostworks Edited December 25, 2019 by Mr. Not 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JohnRogers Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 ^ that’s where we’re all at right now i think, growing out of the forum/web presence while it used to be such a big part of our lives. i miss ghostworks I'm still bi. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Day of Light Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 it's too big Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PolarizeMe Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 ^ that’s where we’re all at right now i think, growing out of the forum/web presence while it used to be such a big part of our lives. i miss ghostworks I'm still bi.Bi does not exist. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr. Not Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 it's too big you reminded me of this instant classic 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr. Not Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 (edited) ^ that’s where we’re all at right now i think, growing out of the forum/web presence while it used to be such a big part of our lives. i miss ghostworks I'm still bi.Bi does not exist. asexuality does tho i'm not asexual, i'm just pretending because i'm lonely and i've built barriers around myselfedit: WAIT reverse thati'm asexual, not lonely Edited December 26, 2019 by Mr. Not Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PolarizeMe Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 ^ that’s where we’re all at right now i think, growing out of the forum/web presence while it used to be such a big part of our lives. i miss ghostworks I'm still bi.Bi does not exist. asexuality does tho i'm not asexual, i'm just pretending because i'm lonely and i've built barriers around myselfedit: WAIT reverse thati'm asexual, not lonelyOh, I was just poking fun of a gay I knew in art school. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Day of Light Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 got orchids for my birthday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
That One Guy Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 it's too big you reminded me of this instant classic “Ey girl you like a guy with a big dick?” “Yeah!” “Sorry I wasted your time.” Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
That One Guy Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 ^ that’s where we’re all at right now i think, growing out of the forum/web presence while it used to be such a big part of our lives. i miss ghostworks I'm still bi.Bi...ing a new purple Challenger Scat Pack? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
That One Guy Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 Classy time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PolarizeMe Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 TOSTers, has fraroc still been mucking about in TRF? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr. Not Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 ^ havent seen that guy in forever. hes on less problematic websites now i think Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr. Not Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 winter turn of the decade doomed future depression sad Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PolarizeMe Posted December 26, 2019 Share Posted December 26, 2019 Between the time I left and came back, I’m still a smoker but now I’m drinking more than prior cause I drink at work (comes with the territory) aside from at home and at shows. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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