Lorraine

You can always delete and revote if you want. Or you can create your own reality and ignore existing reality. You can pretend you never saw this poll and voted. Then you can forget you ever set your eyes on a place called The Rush Forum and registered. You can do anything you want.

I don't understand why this album is so disliked either.

The fifty-somethingish man at the gas station who had a hard time figuring out that, when I handed him a penny more than I owed him, it was so he could just give me two quarters back. He had to summon help from the other person working in the back to settle that.

Rhyta it is so bright and cheerful. Thank you. It is rainy and dreary and just blah here. It's hard to keep my head about on good days. On a day like today, it is a challenge. I'll go have some peanut butter pretzels and see if I can't cheer myself up. :codger: :hug2:

Well, the roof didn't collapse and you appear to be uninjured, so that is a very good sign indeed!!!! Seriously, I am very much touched that you would even do something like that for me. Thank you. :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

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:hug2: Hugs to you, as always! I don't think you are rambling, I think you are speaking bravely and sensibly. I really admire the way you have dealt with everything! I saw this today and it reminded me of you- And I will,by the grace of God, try, and try hard, again tomorrow. Today was a pain day and full of annoyances and pullings this way and that way. And I either am losing my taste for cottage cheese or it has become very dry That is a perfect card too. It does take a lot of courage often to face another day.

With or without my glasses on?

Was told today by one of my guardian angels, who promised to tell me things like this, that I am showing signs of deterioration and progression of the cancer into other parts of the body. . Which is why it takes me so hard to type a line on a typewriter, and my texts are appalling. This is also why they are gently trying to get me to sell my car because it is not safe for me to drive any longer. I don't take morphine if I am going to the store, but I still do not have the confidence I once had as a driver. I drive no more than the 5-miles to Mass or to any store in any direction within the same range of miles. I really do wish I could tell you how I feel. I never thought this would happen to me. Ever. Anything but this. So tonight I am going to work on my attitude toward what I have left of my life. I can't mope or sit in a corner. There's not much I can do other than pray. I can't even read anymore because my eyes close. I haven't figured out the why of that yet. Nurse is coming tomorrow, so I will ask her. I can't go for long walks, or even short ones. It's not my gait as much as being dizzy and lack of balance. I'm kind of limited with distractions because I've lost interest in almost everything I was interested in. I'm just rambling on again. I do have envelopes addressed to those here who wanted memorial cards and, if you didn't want to send me that info, I am sending extra to Becky. She can send you one if you want. I'll know when I can't do this anymore. That time hasn't come just yet. :cool: Can't make plans because I know not how I am going to feel. Feeling fine today doesn't mean tomorrow will be grand too (today by the way was awful). Feeling rotten in the morning doesn't mean the whole day is useless. It's an odd disease, but the only thing I ever hear about it is chemo. Cancer and chemo. Cancer and chemo. There's a lot more to cancer than chemo. It's that some one of the dear oncologists ought to write about it. No one will commit to a time, but she really wonders how much longer I have to go because the cancer I have is a fast moving one

But Laura, what choices do you have really? I didn't ask for this. I didn't want it. It's the last thing I ever expected. We'll see what the next few months bring. Then we'll see just how much grace I have. More than anything, if I make it to 12/25, I'll need moral strength. Christmas is already hard the older you get remembering Christmases long gone. Knowing though that this one will be IT may be too much. That's when I will need prayers the most.

But your candles were lit. :yes: One by that most beautiful statue I've ever seen of Our Lady. :wub: She has the sweetest eyes ever. And the other candle was lit before the picture of the Holy Face of Jesus . More people than ever are attending Mass these days so less and less candles available to light. That makes me happy to see the faith and trust of others in action. Glad you got to go and be with others for a bit. Hugs to you; hoping you have a good week! :hug2: :hug2: You make it sound like I isolate myself. There are people in and out of this place all day. Today was a perfect example. I may not be able to drive far and go cavorting around the way I once did, but I do still socialize, more than ever actually. I cannot take extended release morphine 3x's a day. That I know. If I continue doing that, I may as well have had chemo because the purpose of not having chemo was to enjoy what was left of my life. Nodding out I do not consider one of the joys of living, and that is what taking morphine extended release 3x's a day amounts to - nodding out.

Bonus hugs :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: It was worth nodding off again. :o :lol: :lol: :lol: :hi: :hug2:

But your candles were lit. :yes: One by that most beautiful statue I've ever seen of Our Lady. :wub: She has the sweetest eyes ever. And the other candle was lit before the picture of the Holy Face of Jesus . More people than ever are attending Mass these days so less and less candles available to light. That makes me happy to see the faith and trust of others in action.

I don't think morphine - slow acting or not - 3x's a day or not - is the thing for me. Whenevee I get a burst of energy I must get up from this chair and to go bed. I must. I must.

Happy, happy Birthday, dear Laura! :sundog: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose:

That's beautiful. I could live there forever, especially with that pheasant. Is the pheasant hiding behind that peacock? :P :hug2: :heart: :hug2: Erm, yes! :facepalm:

Everyone will get a candle. I'll light one of those 7-day candles. Maybe two of them. You get a candle whether you like me or hate my guts. Got my cane, and now I'm on my way to Mass! :codger: :angel: :hi:

Back to crying at everything. I had a week or so respite. Now everything makes me cry again. Today was one of the most peaceful and nice days I've ever had in my entire life. That probably means I'll drop dead tomorrow, or something. I was all set to like this post until the last line...although you did allow for something else to be a possibility, so let's replace the "something" with another day just like today! Yes. I'll be going to Mass tomorrow. :) :) :) :angel: So I can wait until that is over. ;)

I bought myself a Christmas stocking someone quilted with a picture of the Holy Family. I left it hanging on the doorknob of our coat closet. :7up: Anyone can feel free to drop a card or a note or a little gift in the stocking. :yes: Don't be shy. :no: It's a long stocking. Sturdy too. ;) :lol: :lol: :lol: :)

Back to crying at everything. I had a week or so respite. Now everything makes me cry again. Today was one of the most peaceful and nice days I've ever had in my entire life. That probably means I'll drop dead tomorrow, or something.

That's beautiful. I could live there forever, especially with that pheasant. Here's your three :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: , and I will see you one! :hug2: :cool: ;)

Stormtron, our mystery man! :codger: Well, here's a mystery hug for you too: :hug2:

Oh, Hatch!!! :heart: :( :heart: :hug2:

We're missing something here though. Let me see what I can find ............................here it is :macallan:!!! Bottoms up! Cheers! :cheers: