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Lorraine

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  1. I don't have much to say. I work best with stuff I can be sarcastic about. I do read both threads and experience emotional responses. :hug2: I know that, and I was just teasing you. You are a good man with a good heart. But, why wait until Christmas? Look what I got for you:
  2. I am grateful to each of you who takes the time to respond to my post. I know it's not easy dealing with this. I mean, what DO you say??? But this is the way it is for me, and I can't change it. I can only face it the best way I know how. How people without any faith in anything deal with this boggles my mind. I pray for them too. I wake up very early and start praying. My TrueRushFriends are always included in my prayers. Even John Rogers and his public lice. :16ton:
  3. :hug2: You have a lot of inner strength, I wish you didn't have to use it facing this. Hugs to you. It does kind of deplete energy from going anywhere else. Every once in a whlie my husband asks, "Do you feel any better?" :eh:
  4. Rough morning. I can't believe this is happening to me. Especially when gently told how the end will be, seeing I will not be able to relieve myself. It's not a pretty picture,but they do the best they can to get as much out of you via a tube down the nose - unless I am mistaken, that is how I understood it. It won't be painful, or too much discomfort. So they say. Right now I am an emotional basket case. Can't even run away from myself. I'm stuck. I haven't stopped crying for hours. If I listened to any music right now, I think I would shatter into a zillion pieces. But it beats dying from a stroke, the effects of which linger on for years and years and years sometimes.
  5. Sincerely sorry to hear about this, Mick. He's at peace now. Better to die at Hospice than at an hospital. :rose: :hug2:
  6. Is it disrespectful to say the part about your husband made me smile ? Hope they can address your new complaints and glad to see your sense of humor is doing well! :hug2: She just left. This is her report. Cancer is a very selfish disease. It takes everything in the body for itself. What she thought might be being caused by other things (blood pressure/oxygen levels) is, in fact, being caused by the cancer. My cancer is quickly depleting whatever nutrients I have and are taking them in to feed itself and grow. My prediction: It is now September 27th. At the rate I am going downhill, Thanksgiving might be somewhat bearable, but Christmas, if I make it, will be the swan song. I predict I die in early January. It's not pleasant hearing how I go. They don't stick a vacuum up my rear and suck the poop that the tumor won't allow through out. It all just sits there, and solid food ceases, iv's for nausea and other things because pills would only vomit back. That's my reality. Each day, as long as I am given the grace to do so, I hope to make the best of. She said my incessant and unpredictable weeping is normal too. After all, I'm dying. Even though I don't walk around thinking that thought 24/7, my soul still knows it. I am dying. If you had asked me last year what I would think was going to happen to me this year, this little gem wouldn't have even made my list.
  7. Hospice nurse due soon. I am patiently awaiting. Got my list of new complaints awaiting, and husband is anxious to know how much time I have left. Probably so he can plan a big bash.
  8. I'm so sorry to see this, I'm sorry I didn't see it until now. We get so close to those cuddle buddy cats. Hugs to you both, I know it's never easy to have this happen. :hug2: Have better news, vet seems to think he has high blood pressure so another visit to the vet this week to check. Also kidney issues so he'll have to change his diet. He's been hiding out in the basement, think he's ticked off at me and he hates the pills. Hubby gives them to him and he's bit him a couple of times. Got one of those pill syringes which works much better, so less stress now. He came back upstairs tonight and wanted cuddles. I know we are on borrowed time but if he can be in less pain then that makes it easier. This is good news. I hope you have bought lots of extra time with him. No. Death never gets easier to deal with, be it with animals or people. It's hard to deal with the knowledge of never seeing someone again in this life.
  9. What a lovely kitty, I have a blue cream girl too, so nice to have a cuddle with :heart: :hug2: She's not much for cuddling. Each morning and night I grab her and hug her and give her a kiss, but she doesn't go for any of that type of stuff. I do it just the same. :) It might not do much for her, but it helps me! :) I can relate, we have a couple of kitties who aren't the lap and cuddle type. They are learning to like pets on the head but we have to fool them into thinking it was their idea :lol:. That's why I love the blue cream girl, she comes to me for tummy rubs. She loves tummy rubs too and loves to sleep on her back. I've taken care of probably close to 50 cats or more, the last thirty years, and Tulora is the first cat I've ever been in contact that wasn't vulnerable when it came to her tummy.
  10. Just so long as you understand that this is a 2-way street. All the irrational crazies aren't all on one side. I've had trf members give me the axe for voting for Trump. Maybe you will too now. I'm glad I'm almost gone from this increasingly irrational, partisan, and insane world. Sometimes I think there's more hatred in the world today than ever which is why kindness shines out like a diamond. Don't you all think it is high time we call an end to this? If we don't stop it now it will only result in more pain and suffering and sickness and, worse yet, more hatred.
  11. Thanks, Becky. I'm still trying to get a picture of her that shows her off well. She does not photograph well. Even the picture they had on the shelter page of cats for adoption did her no justice. But she's my gal, and my heart breaks for her and what will happen to her. I`m sure she knows she`s one of the lucky ones by spending her time with you :pussy: :wub: She's my sweetheart!
  12. Guess what flowers they had on the altar this morning? But I left my phone else I would've taken pictures of them. They looked beautiful. If I get a chance to get there during the week, I will take a picture. Today I am very nauseous and my equilibrium is off. I think I am almost getting too dangerous to drive. All I took this morning was a steroid and I kept wanting to fall asleep. When I wasn't doing that, I was crying. In pain today. Discovered large extended mass in the shape of a smile in lower abdomen. Is thicker on side where tumor was and is already growing back. Hospice nurse coming tomorrow morning. Yay! Latest is dry mouth even though I drink plenty of water.
  13. Who's the dude with the pumpkin head in the back? Is that you, Grep? ;) :lol:
  14. Librarian, if you could only have seen the smile that lit up my face this morning when I saw this. You brightened my day. I could've hugged you!!!!! :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
  15. What a lovely kitty, I have a blue cream girl too, so nice to have a cuddle with :heart: :hug2: She's not much for cuddling. Each morning and night I grab her and hug her and give her a kiss, but she doesn't go for any of that type of stuff. I do it just the same. :) It might not do much for her, but it helps me! :)
  16. Thanks, Becky. I'm still trying to get a picture of her that shows her off well. She does not photograph well. Even the picture they had on the shelter page of cats for adoption did her no justice. But she's my gal, and my heart breaks for her and what will happen to her.
  17. That is a beauty. Maybe if I make it to then, someone can doll me up just like Mona. :)
  18. I'm trying to post a picture of Tulora but without any success. I will try again tomorrow. In the meantime, from my heart I thank you for all of your kind words, and I love the sunflower and butterfly pic. We have a lot of butterflies hanging around ours too. I tried to take pictures, but I am not too good with the camera.
  19. I can't use this phone for posting. I' m messing everything up. Could be the fact that I've been since 2 might have something to do with it. Believe it or not, when I do get up like that, I pray for all of you. Not collectively, but name by name.
  20. GM, that's funny. I was thinking of pulling up the prom thread. I'll look for it later. We had a lot of fun and it got to I think 65 pages. Mr whippet and his whippy-mobile! :)
  21. It's my only bright spot of the week. I was going to go a few days during the week as well, but I cannot move as fast as I used to, and it takes me a long time to get myself together, so the morning Mass is out. The other Mass they have around noon isn't good because hospice nurses, social workers, chaplains, doctors like to come, for whatever reason, right around 11:30, or 1. All I do is pray all day really. I've lost interest in most everything else. I love to read, but my eyes just can't stay open long enough to read more than a paragraph or two. It's okay though. I lay on the couch and look at my gorgeous sunflowers with Tulora on my lap. The days have been sunny and on the warm side. I think about how grateful I am for all the people I've known in my life, and how grateful I am to Hospice, and how fortunate I am to have found the great seniors' place we live in. Today two very kind ladies brought us lunch. One even brought along a lovely potted plant. Both were obviously prepared with care and love, not just thrown together as some do. She even made a treat of home-made brownies for dessert. How grateful I am to them for their kindness. With so little kindness around anymore, I do so appreciate it when I am the recipient of it. I am very peaceful, and my heart is, believe it or not, full of joy. I'm finally going Home. :)
  22. Finally, another Bon I know. The only other Bon I know is Bon Ami. And I don't think it signs. Or sings.
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