reply to original post. i know how you feel, been going through similar myself. iv not read the other posts to this thread, but i would just like to say, you are not alone you know. life is hard and marriage is hard at times and having kids involved makes it worse, but the best thing you can do is to be true to yourself and your kids (if you have any) do whats best for your life. in my oppinion kids need food, water, shelter, love, encouragement and compassion. that can be applied to yourself aswell. not to be corny but oh well...some rush songs that have helped me...'something for nothing' and 'enemy within' listening to those songs helped me through a lot. hope things are ok, fancy a rant, message me. if not, its ok. xxxx