Day of Light

discord has become my primary mode of communication

eating from the trashcan of ideology

flex culture is toxic

it's been a rocky 8 months in some ways but superior to the alternative

reconnecting with old friends and old events is important

having money is pretty cool and important but i don't think i'll ever be able to derive significant self-esteem from having a high salary

tbh the decision and headspace i was in that made me go into therapy was in some ways more useful than the therapy itself

there really was this weird, inauthentic blip in my life

 

like i was lying to myself

 

yeah when i look back at the few journal entries i've saved i sometimes just think "who was i trying to be?"

 

kinda makes me wonder why i didn't have more self-awareness

there really was this weird, inauthentic blip in my life

 

like i was lying to myself

going through old journals

 

feeling strange

becoming a vinyl collector

engineer

toddler rentals

weight of love

I stood by when the news first came in because admittedly I haven't been following the band for even a fraction as long as some of the forum members I got to know from my time here. The outpour surprised me. A lot of irl friends who I didn't know were a part of this scene posting touching tributes, too.

 

It makes me sad that Neil did not get the retirement he wanted to have. Compromises with touring towards the end of his career with the band, and then having to battle cancer. It is insanely unfair. I've spent a few days ruminating over this now.

 

RIP

talking about plans in public

bath bomb

feel pretty good lately

 

me too.

 

the fembot who dm'd me who i thought was writing an incel hitpiece turned out to be a legit person... i think.

 

what is happening now?

over ten years ago

inting

meat

 

feel pretty good lately

badbadnotgood

got orchids for my birthday

it's too big