The Analog Grownup Posted September 1, 2017 Share Posted September 1, 2017 I Can't say specifically, but it's been making me sad for a while. :(I gave you a "like" because for a while now I have had an undefinable and strange "feeling" in the pit of my stomach brought on by who knows what. I'm not sure what it's about, but it leaves me with an uncharacteristic inner restlessness and discontent. Do you keep a journal? I find it sometimes helps when I try to put down words on how I feel, even when I don't know. It's like thinking aloud.I'm smiling because I began keeping one when I was 13. I used to carry it around in my handbag in the seventies and eighties. Often when I was out at a club or bar, I would pass it around to my friends to write in it. By the time I was 35, I had amassed at least twenty notebooks full of memories. One day I started to read through them. A friend of mine called while I was doing so and I told her what I was doing and that I had begun to read entries of things that happened that were better left not recalled. She asked me what would happen if I died suddenly - would I want those journals to be read by anyone else? I thought long and hard about that. About a week later, I picked up the first journal and started ripping. It took me a long time, but I finally shredded (as best as I could in the days before shredders) all twenty journals. My hands were hurting when I was done. They served me no purpose and, frankly, I think they are a waste of time. I think that once you've written it down, it has served its purpose. I like to think of it as putting the past to rest, so you don't carry it onto the future. I keep a journal that I very seldom write in - there's too little going on in my life to be writing everyday ;). I don't like to read from it, because it reminds me of my weakness but I guess in a couple of years I can look back, and realize how far I've moved. But I can understand why you would get rid of yours. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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