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I'm so sorry for what you are going through. hug2.gif First, do something to relieve some of your stress so you stop the polyp growth. Second, wait until the biopsy results come back and think only positive until then. I realize with your history you can think of nothing else but try, because the negativity is not helping your stress.

 

We are all here for you and feel free to vent at anytime. There may be people on this board who have gone through a similar experience and can give you advice or share with you.

 

Hang in there! hug2.gif

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I have a friend that had c.c a few years ago. They got it right away and he is free and clear now. Good luck 1022.gif
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First off, I'm sorry about everything your going through.

Secondly, believe for the best until reason not to.

You have a lot of fight in you. Don't give in.

God bless you.

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Really sorry you're having to go thru this so young. I know it doesn't seem fair.

Praying you have some good news for us when the results come back.

I know it's scary, try not to worry.

I pray you'll be able to keep your mind off it and be able to relax maybe some this weekend yes.gif

 

 

 

 

 

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To everyone. Thank you VERY much for the kind words.

I've been fighting that nagging fear in the back of my brain.

 

I've been attempting to unwind. Well, I was doing fine until I broke my rolands.

 

I got so angry, so I decided to pound away that frusteration to some AC/DC.

 

Messed up the ride cymbal trigger.

 

So now my only way to get away from everything is music.

 

Time for lots of Rush, folks!

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QUOTE (D3strukt @ Aug 18 2011, 09:03 PM)
To everyone. Thank you VERY much for the kind words.
I've been fighting that nagging fear in the back of my brain.

I've been attempting to unwind. Well, I was doing fine until I broke my rolands.

I got so angry, so I decided to pound away that frusteration to some AC/DC.

Messed up the ride cymbal trigger.

So now my only way to get away from everything is music.

Time for lots of Rush, folks!

Is there a garbage cart or can that you can bang on outside? (or in the garage)

 

I really feel for you, and drumming was a good idea.

 

I'm sending a big hug your way and lots of prayers!

 

 

 

 

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I'm sorry I'm late chiming in on this, but I really feel for you. Do what you've got to in order to get through this. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.
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Prayers pod thoughts your way. Please try not to dwell on feeling like a "ticking time bomb." it's ok to feel angry, scared, sad. It's part of the process of getting to a place where you can feel strength and hope. :-)

 

Medicine is always changing and they can really do amazing things these days. Change doctors if you feel like you need to. I know it's very overwhelming. I'm so sorry you are going through this.

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I'm very sorry to hear this, you are too young to go through something this horrible. Thoughts and prayers coming your way, and hoping your biopsy will prove the polyps are not cancerous. Hang in there.
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A good day today. I got to see my son for the first time in a week! Almost cried, because I missed him so much, but I checked myself (because he's very sentimental and will start crying when you do.)

 

He's starting to walk, which is pretty amazing for a 9 month old. He's only been crawling a month, steady.

 

I feel that ever since I left my GF, that I have lost my emotional support, I guess. So, i've been dealing with. My mother, my first apartment, enrolling in school, getting the license, and finding a new mate.

 

That said, I have found someone, but it's uh, it's complicated. So I might back off of that dramatic bullshit. I don't need it.

 

Living alone doesn't help my mental state either. I find myself up late at night thinking. So I bike a lot at night.

 

Then the other night, I was in a blind spot and busted the innertube on my BRAND NEW bike (literally got it like on Wednesday.)

 

These past few months have sucked, and I really don't know how I go.

 

I feel like i'm on autopilot. Except today. Today feels great.

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QUOTE (D3strukt @ Aug 20 2011, 08:22 PM)
...finding a new mate.

That said, I have found someone, but it's uh, it's complicated. So I might back off of that dramatic bullshit. I don't need it.

The last thing you need is instability in another. Be strong for yourself because you can't be strong for a mate at this time. Everything comes in time especially if you tell yourself it will. Do not let any negativity enter your head. Tell yourself that it is good to not have someone now. You have your whole life to find the one best for you. Don't complicate it with someone who is just OK. Things will get better because they are supposed to be better. Tell yourself what you are going through is temporary, not permanent.

 

I have a friend who was going through a very rough time, including depression. One song helped her through a lot. Creed's "Rain". She says it gives her strength now because it led her out of her mind's darkness.

 

QUOTE

Can you help me out?
Can you let me a hand?
It's safe to say that
I'm stuck again

Trapped between this life and the light
I just can't figure out
How to make it right

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more
Something more...

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
With every tomorrow comes another life

I feel it's gonna rain
For days and days
I feel it's gonna rain

I tried to figure out
I can understand
What it means to live on again

Trapped between the truth and the consequence
Nothings real
Nothings making sense

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more
Something more...

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this
Rain like this
Rain like this

Fall down
Wash away my yesterdays
Fall down
So let the rain fall down on me

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
Let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this
Rain like this
Rain like this

I feel it's gonna rain like this
Rain like this

I feel it's gonna rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain...
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