PolarizeMe

Yeah. we spoke at length last night post-Sannhet show about shit from the panic of the virus to the aforementioned question. I probably made a fool and social anxious wreck out of myself but f**k, she inadvertently helped me make sense of myself & feel I’m of merit of sorts.

I guess I can officially say I’m friends w/the ECW vocalist without questioning whether or not I actually am or just a fan who’s friendly towards said artist.

Greatest Street Sects song ever.

I’m not scared of it. Just wash your hands and practice good hygiene & people’ll be fine.

It was nice seeing Sannhet w/some Flenser friends of mine.

guys a huge nerd and i saw a portion of the clip of him whining and throwing a pillow at his wife. he also got arrested for throwing a beer at a christian protester. i have a hard time believing the guy did anything traumatizing he just seems like a sperg honestly The Christian protester part’s hilarious. I don’t think the entire band leaving is coincidental though.

Vektor’s rad but it’s too bad DiSanto’s a wifebeater.

I wonder if this epidemic will convince my perpetually going senile grandma to stay in the motherland instead of coming back to ‘Murica over the spring through autumn. That could help mental well being for my entire family. IDC if this is insensitive but considering the data so far, if she gets it, she’s dead.

I wonder if this epidemic will convince my perpetually going senile grandma to stay in the motherland instead of coming back to ‘Murica over the spring through autumn. That could help mental well being for my entire family.

Went to work yesterday morning, killed time doing shit but gave up and headed straight to line up for the Cult of Luna show and unknowingly to both of us, a dude I met at an Alcest show some years back but remained friends on SNS with was in front of me and all of a sudden DM’d me asking “Are you here?” and I opened up my DMs ready to reply and he somehow figured out it WAS me behind him. We didn’t even recognize each other...lol. Can’t blame him. I’ve changed appearances a lot in the past 3 years. It was nice catching up though. He’s a pretty cool dude.

i think about bravest face a lot Bravest Face is underrated. That middle section w/that clean twanging guitar noodle’s great. Bass line also’s got a nice groove to it.

I’m leaving therapy on 3/17 and going back into the real world in a metaphorical sense. I think I’ll miss driving to and from therapy the most honestly cause it forced me to confront my aversion to driving (even though I’ve had a license for a few years now) and made me a better driver...and also because the music I’d play during those drives are pretty much the stuff that I’m most invigorated by and resonates most w/the present day me. Mentally, I’m at the highest I’ve been in the past 3-4 years. It’s the rest of the world I’m seeing that’s turned to Planet Cuck and cancels out my mental well being.

I dunno if you could do both, I’d say both but push comes to shove, if you had to choose one, I’d go w/Abbath & Mayhem. Gatecreeper’s also on the bill & they (along w/Blood Incantation & Tomb Mold) are probably the best “modern” death metal right now IMO. Plus it’s the Decibel tour and Decibel is the best metal magazine in the game right now.

On my way to cuck f**k off then...

That Opeth show was kinda like confronting my past. And it was like I felt at peace w/it as shameful and not one I look back at fondly as it was. Kinda reminded me why I fell in love w/the band in the first place even if my tastes have moved on. Felt better about seeing them than the recent DEG show honestly cause the latter was just to redeem the awful 2015 show which it did just enough for me to say it was successful.

Take it from a regular smoker as of this writing still...you don’t want to. I’ve set a date where I make a very serious attempt to quit for good. Actually it’s the day after my birthday cause I’m celebrating the occasion w/my Flenser friends at the FlenzCup that night and since they’ve done so much for me to get me in a better place the past 3 years, it’s sort of symbolic of ending the last trace of my unhealthy post-college desperation...even though I began smoking IN college (it got worse afterwards for sure).

Anyway, I’m going to bed. Gotta get up early & get myself ready to cover an 8 hour event liaison shift at the usual tomorrow even though I’ve never done it before but it’s for some sort of new wave church so I think I’ll do fine...staff thinks so too. Get paid a few more $$$ doing event liaison too so that’s a plus.

Crowd vibe aside, that was overall one of the better Opeth shows I’ve seen...for sure top 3. Sound wise it was definitely the best though...maybe even the best sounding show I’ve seen/heard I reckon. The new songs were great...actually they were my favorite of the night if I’m being honest and I didn’t even listen to the album apart from the 3 songs they played to get myself ready for the show. The Apollo is a great venue. Classy architecture but chill vibe. Staff were pretty cool w/me. I guess it’s because I work in the same line of profession that I came across as a chill dude.

Yo Not, remember when you said you hated the DEG crowd vibe? Well I’m hating tonight’s Oldpeth crowd vibe right now. I guess I’m used to and prefer smaller club shows.

A newer co-worker of mine told me to stop selling myself short. I think he’s right but I do such thing as a defense mechanism to keep myself in check but I guess I go too far w/it.

That's So Raven. The Raven-Simoné Who Refused To Sing

I did it. If I can’t see Devy due to work commitments at least I got to see Opeth cause I had an opening and jumped on it. Three nights of experimental music at work, the Opeth show and back to work the next day to do my first event liaison gig for some church people renting the space for a day.

TicketBastard released a few more tickets for Opeth’s Saturday show...f**k it do I do it live or say “Thanks but no thanks?”

I forgot how much I love Demon Of The Fall. I also forgot how much Toxic Garbage Island effing thrashes.

If I or yourself can be in the place my friend Thom is (stable day job but flexible enough to put out music and/or play a few shows on one’s own terms), that to me is success in the music industry/lifestyle/whatever you wanna call it. i didn’t know thom yorke had a day job! ������������������������������������ and i dont expect to make any money from my music but maybe? No. Thom who plays in the band Planning For Burial. I don’t expect to make money either when I finally decide to put out my sound art/noise/whatever it ends up being but really my goal is to form my own artistic identity, and put out something that’s sincere knowingly it’s niche. Then from there, probably play a show or get myself involved in a community w/like minded artists. i'm in the phase of entering a community of likeminded artists right now, feels good. When I think about it though, I’m ALREADY in a community of likeminded artists because the community I’m a part of the is at my workplace and to a lesser extent my friends in the Flenser fam/group on FB. Granted I come from a guitar driven background, but the common ground that ties me to both is experimentation and a curiosity to get out of the traditional band formula which I’ve honestly lost interest in.