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I've just read this thread in full for the first time, and I must say, this is better than any book I've ever read or any movie I've ever watched. It takes a lot for something to really move me, but here I found myself fighting back tears of joy, sadness and hope throughout. My heart genuinely goes out to all of you who have opened up on this thread, if I or anyone else needs motivation ever, this thread is the place to turn and Rush is the band to listen to!

 

It is an amazing thread, isn't it? And it is a thread that should be copied out and bound, and then handed to Alex, Geddy and Neil so that they know, I mean REALLY know, what their music has meant to and done for more than a few of their fans.

I love this, I really wish the boys could know how much they mean to all of us. I just revisited this thread and it was still a very emotional read for me, so many things that we share in our aloneness.

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I see this thread is still going. Can I just come out and admit that if it weren't for the good people I've met here, I probably wouldn't still be in the fandom? You guys have helped me realize that I don't have to hide from others as much as I thought I did. Hopefully I'll be less of a pain in the future.
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I see this thread is still going. Can I just come out and admit that if it weren't for the good people I've met here, I probably wouldn't still be in the fandom? You guys have helped me realize that I don't have to hide from others as much as I thought I did. Hopefully I'll be less of a pain in the future.

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I see this thread is still going. Can I just come out and admit that if it weren't for the good people I've met here, I probably wouldn't still be in the fandom? You guys have helped me realize that I don't have to hide from others as much as I thought I did. Hopefully I'll be less of a pain in the future.

 

I can only speak for myself, but I never thought of you as "a pain".

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I see this thread is still going. Can I just come out and admit that if it weren't for the good people I've met here, I probably wouldn't still be in the fandom? You guys have helped me realize that I don't have to hide from others as much as I thought I did. Hopefully I'll be less of a pain in the future.

 

I can only speak for myself, but I never thought of you as "a pain".

Fascinating would be a better word..... :)
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Wow. Just re-read the whole thread over again... ad wow.

 

Gone through some rough spots since my last time here, had some good things, too.

Been a little low these past few days, but dang, going through the thread again... Y'all are so inspiring to me.

 

Thank you all for sharing, y'all are some of the most awesome people I know! I love you all to bits and I'm proud as hell to be among such wonderful lights!

Endless (virtual) hugs to each and every one of you!

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I haven't posted much in this thread for awhile either. I've been going through a lot of changes in the past six months or so- some major ups and downs (and don't we really mean downs, more than anything else, when we use that term?) since the last time I posted anything here in detail. And I can only say that being 'broken', and having been through all of the things that I have, has enabled me to appreciate what has been happening in my life more recently. Despite the demons that are still with me, and may always be, something truly incredible has happened to me. I've been given something that has filled me with so much hope- far surpassing anything I've ever even dreamed.

 

Despite the darkness, I'm able to shrug it off (with some very important help), and to actually focus on a future that holds unbelievably brilliant promise. It really is the most amazing thing. So I just wanted to share that with you all.

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I haven't posted much in this thread for awhile either. I've been going through a lot of changes in the past six months or so- some major ups and downs (and don't we really mean downs, more than anything else, when we use that term?) since the last time I posted anything here in detail. And I can only say that being 'broken', and having been through all of the things that I have, has enabled me to appreciate what has been happening in my life more recently. Despite the demons that are still with me, and may always be, something truly incredible has happened to me. I've been given something that has filled me with so much hope- far surpassing anything I've ever even dreamed.

 

Despite the darkness, I'm able to shrug it off (with some very important help), and to actually focus on a future that holds unbelievably brilliant promise. It really is the most amazing thing. So I just wanted to share that with you all.

 

That's good to hear! :hug2:

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Just stumbled across this thread. By far the most moving and profound post I've ever read on this forum.

 

I hope you are still on your journey of healing :)

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Just stumbled across this thread. By far the most moving and profound post I've ever read on this forum.

 

I hope you are still on your journey of healing :)

 

I think about her often and wonder how she is doing. She never came back here that I am aware of.

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I cannot recall a time in my life when I wasn't broken.

 

It is much like the line in the Aerosmith song...

 

"Sometimes I feel broke and can't get fixed."

 

You may think that, and feel that way, but you do not appear broken to me.

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I cannot recall a time in my life when I wasn't broken.

 

It is much like the line in the Aerosmith song...

 

"Sometimes I feel broke and can't get fixed."

 

You may think that, and feel that way, but you do not appear broken to me.

 

All the world's a stage afterall, isn't it?

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I cannot recall a time in my life when I wasn't broken.

 

It is much like the line in the Aerosmith song...

 

"Sometimes I feel broke and can't get fixed."

 

You may think that, and feel that way, but you do not appear broken to me.

 

All the world's a stage afterall, isn't it?

 

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I'd have to agree. Before I discovered Rush I was in a pretty bad place in my life. All I listened to was Heavy Metal which perpetuated my feelings of hatred for everything around me and I was pretty much a shut in who shunned anyone who attempted to get close to me. In all honestly after a year of listening to their albums nonstop I've started making pretty big transformations in my life... Its part of what connects me to these guys and their music in such an intense way.
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As a loner and an outcast during my formative years, I can somewhat relate to the OP's story. Regardless of the passage of time, I still feel much like one. But the last 1 1/2 years of (often brutal) self-discovery has me moving in the right direction. Much of this re-coincided with my return to the Rush fold and into other emotive music. Including discovering many of you here who have tread similar paths.
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You want to know which Rush song is really helping me emotionally right now? Far Cry. As I read the lyrics, all I can do is think about how I feel about the world and how much different it is from what I expected it would be before I became an adult...how it's a "Far Cry from the world I thought I'd inherit" And my doubts twoards ever getting my life together and surviving in this world....Then this lyric comes....

 

One day I feel I'm on top of the world

And the next it's falling in on me

I can get back on, I can get back on

 

No matter what life throws at me, I can get through it...No matter what happens, I have it within me to deal with it. It's sort of the polar opposite of Losing It.

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Anyone who tells you that music cannot change your entire life has obviously never been at the very end of their own rope, like I was.

 

I'm happy for you that their music helped you change your life for the better. Everyone is different so you can't generalize. Music can change some people's entire life but certainly not mine. I've been "at the end of my own rope" too so I know what I'm talking about.

Edited by Tuesday's Gone
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Anyone who tells you that music cannot change your entire life has obviously never been at the very end of their own rope, like I was.

 

I'm happy for you that their music changed your life for the better. Everyone is different so you can't generalize. Music can change some people's entire life but certainly not mine. I've been "at the end of my own rope" too so I know what I'm talking about.

Music means very different things to different folks as I have found out very much around here. In my teens it was everything to me but being married at 20 it quickly became just something I enjoyed from time to time and then became totally unimportant when my children came. I am only having somewhat of a renaissance because of this forum to be honest... :)
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I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

 

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

 

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

 

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

 

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

 

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

 

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..

 

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

 

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

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I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

 

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

 

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

 

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

 

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

 

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

 

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..

 

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

 

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

 

Your post made me cry.

 

You are a winner. You pulled yourself up by the bootstraps instead of wallowing in self-pity and victimhood. You have my sincere admiration and respect.

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I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

 

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

 

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

 

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

 

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

 

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

 

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..

 

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

 

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

 

:hug2:

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Thank you! ..BTW I meant "The Pass", not "Losing It".. I must still have the Vancouver show in my head lol
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