Gosh, you all are amazing people. Thank you again for responding so warmly to a post that I was so scared about making! I'm going to try to respond as much as I can and hope I don't miss too much!! I can't get online too often because of my work schedule so it's hard for me to sit down and write lengthy stuff.
Mika wondered why so many broken people and misfits are attracted to Rush and that's something I've often thought about, too. For me, the initial attracting factor was the combination of guitar and vocals (although the alarmingly complex, bubbling, underlying rhythms were quick to grab up their own big chunk of the spotlight). Lerxst has a way of speaking directly to broken hearts. I've never encountered another guitarist who could just GRAB me, not by the ears alone but fully by the heart, and make me ache with such candid pain and joy. I love the way he can paint dark and somber atmospheres and then shatter them with light and mirth. His playing is consistently full of hope and celebration. His guitar seems to have moments where it can't help itself but to cry out in ecstasy just from being in his hands. He'll jump up to variegated high notes that gambol and glitter after swimming through murky lower tides and even through any darkness created, you never lose hope. Alex always brings you back to the light. To people like me, who lived a lot of their lives in darkness and despair, that is a VITAL thing.
Lorraine said that he seems like a very emotional person and I agree. How could he not be, with the way he plays the guitar? Geddy strikes me as being an extremely emotional man as well, but very reserved about it. Alex, I think, would be more emotionally volatile and prone to outbursts both positive and negative. His style of playing reveals that to me quite plainly and it is the perfect temperament for a guitarist. I think you need that tempestuousness to be able to convey raw and naked, unashamed human emotion through your music.
Geddy Lee's voice was the other enormous attracting factor for me (and I'm going to leave out talking about Neil, not because I don't love him and his craft - he is THE BEST -, but because I think he'd hate being scrutinized and gushed over in a post of this nature). I'm not sure how many other men and women will be able to relate to my most prominent reason for falling in love with Geddy's vocals, but it was the ethereal, asexual and unthreatening nature of his voice that appealed to and soothed me right away. And when I say "unthreatening", I don't mean that his range is unintimidating (phsaw!) or that his delivery of emotion is somehow "less than" (phsaw again!)... I mean that he did not have that overt, in-your-face, brute sexuality that frontmen like Robert Plant, Roger Daltry and Mick Jagger had. That frightened me and put me off the music. A LOT. Geddy did not have that dangerous, sex-obsessed persona that made my blood run cold. There is an innocence in his voice and presence that mingles with the coiled-spring-like power and energy. His voice is alarming but charming. It makes me feel safe. There's a sweetness to it, a gentleness mixed with a tiny bit of endearing arrogance, and when he really lets go, he can raise every hair on your body with his emotion.
And he's adorable. They all are. They are such sweet-looking, unthreatening people. Alex with his mega-watt smile and Geddy with his head full of bouncy curls, Neil with his cheeky grin. They are normal-looking, adorable men... who are also obvious misfits. That is the biggest part of their charm as people. We KNOW that they are misfits, just like we are. And yet, look how far they've come. Look at these 3 guys who had a really rough time in school and were bullied and had difficult childhoods and never really fit in... and then look at how they've overcome it all. Here they are, living their dreams and making music that seeks out every suffering person who needs it most and envelopes them in hope and joy.
We all love Rush for different reasons and all of us have suffered differently in our pasts... but what remains, and what ties us all inextricably together, is the fact that Rush has healed us somehow. I stopped cutting when I discovered Rush. I literally just stopped
. There was no rough transitory period. There was no fallback. The desire to hurt myself because I was drowning in bad memories and loneliness and misery was not there anymore. My life was filled with a seemingly-endless supply of beautiful new music ready to be discovered, from a band that had made me feel ALIVE and SANE for the first time in a long, long time.
GOD BLESS RUSH!!!!!
"Some of my most cherished moments at Rush concerts have been among the crowd when a stranger's eyes randomly meet mine, and without exchanging a word we each recognise something life-affirming and essential that we share." -GeddysMullet
I've had that exact experience, too, and you know what? I've never had it at any other concert for any other band. It's a big part of the reason that I believe that many Rush fans are "broken" in a very unique way.
Gangsterfurious... where to begin? Your story was crushing to read. There was a lot in there that I identify with and a lot that I'm grateful that I haven't had to identify with in my life. You're an incredibly strong woman and I'm glad that you've been able to grow and to find love. Like you, I carry a huge amount of residual shame that will probably haunt me until the day I die. I am not currently able to move on from the abuse in my past enough to ever be in a relationship (and will probably be single until the day I die), but it warms my heart to know that someone who has suffered similarly has gone on to get married and trust again! Congrats on that, and on overcoming everything else you've been through! All that we can really do is to try to appreciate what we have every day: life, love, friends, music, animals. Like you, I feel incredibly blessed to be part of the Rush fanbase where I know there are hundreds of other people like me who know what it's like to be on the outside, hurting, looking in.
Liana... I've been there, too, and I'm so sorry. Can you imagine what all of our lives would be like without the saving grace of music in devastating moments like those? I've been alone and crying in my bathroom in the past, too, and it was always music that calmed me down and wrapped my hurting heart in band-aids. Mission (did you know that song is Geddy's favorite to play??) is an incredibly uplifting and inspiring song. I love how it rushes along on an urgent and optimistic current before Alex soars in and really saves the day with that beautiful solo. He is the king of bleeding heart riffs that can literally mend everything that's wrong in your world. The closing of Marathon, Xanadu and the solo in Closer to the Heart are some other "saving grace" moments for me, too. The full list is waaaay too long to name!
MMCXII... thank you so much for your sweetness and support and, silly as it may sound, thank you for saying that you need me here. Without turning this into a pity party, no one has ever said that they needed me before and it was just... one of the nicest feelings I've ever been given. Thank you.
RushFlyer2112... I don't know you, but I do understand your loneliness. I think that we have both found homes here and please know that you can talk to me (and I'm sure, everyone else here!) whenever you want. I am only a message away!
JohnnyBlaze, Blue J, Babycat, Garden Dancer, Sheldon Cooper, MMCXII, Lorraine, librarian, Mika, RushFlyer2112, GeddysMullet, EagleMoon, ReGorLaTroy, Amy Farrah Fowler, Mara, CygnusGal, gangsterfurious, Liana, frippy, snowdogged and anyone else I may have missed (sorry!)... you sweet, wonderful, supportive, amazing human beings with very obviously-superior taste in music (LOL)... thank you for making my first foray into message board posting such a heart-warming experience. Thank you for sharing your stories and feelings with me.. I'm welling up again now, so I'm going to go.... but I'm so glad to have met all of you. Stay strong and stay wonderful!!!! And Lorraine, I talked to Manhattan this morning and she says she really misses you, too. Come visit sometime.
Edited for crummy spelling!
Edited by GedsJeans, 17 May 2013 - 08:04 AM.