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#221 MMCXII

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Posted 12 August 2015 - 01:16 PM

I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my  life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..  

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

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Posted 12 August 2015 - 01:39 PM

View PostMMCXII, on 12 August 2015 - 01:16 PM, said:

I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my  life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..  

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

Your post made me cry.

You are a winner.  You pulled yourself up by the bootstraps instead of wallowing in self-pity and victimhood.  You have my sincere admiration and respect.

Edited by Lorraine, 12 August 2015 - 01:42 PM.


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Posted 12 August 2015 - 05:50 PM

View PostMMCXII, on 12 August 2015 - 01:16 PM, said:

I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my  life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..  

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

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Posted 13 August 2015 - 01:56 AM

Thank you! ..BTW I meant "The Pass", not "Losing It"..  I must still have the Vancouver show in my head lol

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Posted 13 August 2015 - 02:26 AM

Such an amazing testimony...thank you.

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Posted 13 August 2015 - 09:10 PM

View PostMMCXII, on 12 August 2015 - 01:16 PM, said:

I've got post #5 in this long thread but when I wrote that (over two years ago wow!), I typed a lot more but then chickened out..

So I guess I'll spill this now for anyone who cares to read it :/

Basically I identify with this thread so much because I've always felt this bond greatly. You see I've always been an introverted deep thinker with no real social skills and was quite shy as a child. I spent countless hours in my room getting lost in Rush's epic music partly because my Dad was a paranoid sociopath with a drinking problem. I had no real relationship with him and he was very abusive

When I was 18 I married my first girlfriend because she was pregnant and a month or so after my baby girl was born I lost my parents in a murder/suicide and had to watch Mom try to survive paralyzed with a machine breathing for her until her own spirituality inspired her to request the machine to be turned off. I got to say goodbye anyway.

I stayed married for 13 years and had 3 more children but I was a bit of a depressed Zombie with no real feeling of purpose. I didn't really care about much which has led to different things in the past like bankruptcies, drug use and generally driving my life into a ditch..

I think when one grows up without certain aspects in their life to build character and confidence then they end up feeling somewhat "broken"

Now back to Rush.. exactly. "Back to Rush. It's where I've often turned to recharge myself and reflect throughout my  life. Many have talked about the song "Losing it" saving them ,well I can vividly remember listening to that song crying and vibrating with that "electrical storm" in my veins..  

Anyway I'll wrap this up before I go on forever.. I'm not typing this for any kind of sympathy because I'm actually doing pretty good now. No, I wanted to share because I know how it feels to feel like you're the only one.. like you can't tell anyone.. and then to hear about others' similar experiences helps in a real way.

Rush has been the only constant in my life. What a nice thing to be able to say :)

Cheers to Rush and to you.  :)

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Posted 31 August 2015 - 11:23 PM

What a beautiful post.  I totally understand that whole misfit feeling.  Rush's music just speaks to me, so deeply.  I am also a misfit among the misfits because of my religious beliefs.  Rush has given me so many new friends, here & at shows, meet up groups, all the places where we gather. I'm new here also.

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Posted 30 October 2015 - 09:03 PM

Right, I am probably the most broken person at this board, mostly because of my failed relationships.

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Posted 30 October 2015 - 11:54 PM

View PostBoots, on 30 October 2015 - 09:03 PM, said:

Right, I am probably the most broken person at this board, mostly because of my failed relationships.

I seriously doubt that.

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Posted 19 January 2016 - 08:20 PM

Coming across this post again...

I literally just cried reading OPs post, sitting here Watching my R40 DVD knowing good and well I may never get to see then live again. None of us may.

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Posted 17 April 2016 - 07:46 PM

Well, worst fears confirmed.

Now to buy a nice shadowbox to put my R40 shirt and ticket in. It shall be a night I tell the grandchildren about with tears and a twinkle ib my eye..

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Posted 07 May 2016 - 04:46 PM

I wonder whatever happened to GedsJeans?  I wrote to her a few times and she never answered.  I know she wrote here in one post that she was/is a borderline personality.  Hope she is alright.  This thread will already be three years old in a few short days.  I think it was a Saturday that she came here and started this thread.  

If you are reading this GJ, thinking of and truly hoping all is well with you.  :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

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Posted 07 May 2016 - 04:59 PM

View PostLorraine, on 07 May 2016 - 04:46 PM, said:

I wonder whatever happened to GedsJeans?  I wrote to her a few times and she never answered.  I know she wrote here in one post that she was/is a borderline personality.  Hope she is alright.  This thread will already be three years old in a few short days.  I think it was a Saturday that she came here and started this thread.  

If you are reading this GJ, thinking of and truly hoping all is well with you.  :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

Seems like a lot of people will join, post a few things and leave.

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Posted 28 July 2016 - 11:35 AM

I was violently assaulted by a skateboarder.  He knocked me over, called me a bitch and then rode away like an a**hole.  It was terrifying.

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Posted 28 July 2016 - 11:51 AM

View PostBoots, on 28 July 2016 - 11:35 AM, said:

I was violently assaulted by a skateboarder.  He knocked me over, called me a bitch and then rode away like an a**hole.  It was terrifying.
I think that would be traumatizing if it happened to me too.

Have you recovered, or are you still shaken up?

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Posted 29 July 2016 - 08:27 AM

View PostLorraine, on 28 July 2016 - 11:51 AM, said:

View PostBoots, on 28 July 2016 - 11:35 AM, said:

I was violently assaulted by a skateboarder.  He knocked me over, called me a bitch and then rode away like an a**hole.  It was terrifying.
I think that would be traumatizing if it happened to me too.

Have you recovered, or are you still shaken up?
It is traumatizing.  I will probably need to see a therapist.  This was verbal and physical abuse.

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Posted 29 July 2016 - 10:28 AM

View PostBoots, on 29 July 2016 - 08:27 AM, said:

View PostLorraine, on 28 July 2016 - 11:51 AM, said:

View PostBoots, on 28 July 2016 - 11:35 AM, said:

I was violently assaulted by a skateboarder.  He knocked me over, called me a bitch and then rode away like an a**hole.  It was terrifying.
I think that would be traumatizing if it happened to me too.

Have you recovered, or are you still shaken up?
It is traumatizing.  I will probably need to see a therapist.  This was verbal and physical abuse.

That incident sounds awful.  Were you able to call the police, or campus security?  They might be familiar with the individual, even if you didn't get much of a look at him.

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Posted 29 July 2016 - 05:55 PM

View Postblueschica, on 29 July 2016 - 10:28 AM, said:

View PostBoots, on 29 July 2016 - 08:27 AM, said:

View PostLorraine, on 28 July 2016 - 11:51 AM, said:

View PostBoots, on 28 July 2016 - 11:35 AM, said:

I was violently assaulted by a skateboarder.  He knocked me over, called me a bitch and then rode away like an a**hole.  It was terrifying.
I think that would be traumatizing if it happened to me too.

Have you recovered, or are you still shaken up?
It is traumatizing.  I will probably need to see a therapist.  This was verbal and physical abuse.

That incident sounds awful.  Were you able to call the police, or campus security?  They might be familiar with the individual, even if you didn't get much of a look at him.
It didn't happen at school.  I don't want to involve the police.  That would only make it worse.  The police force in my city is one of the most corrupt organizations in the country.  They beat up ordinary citizens every week.  They have also been known to kill innocent people.

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Posted 29 July 2016 - 06:41 PM

View PostBoots, on 29 July 2016 - 05:55 PM, said:

View Postblueschica, on 29 July 2016 - 10:28 AM, said:

View PostBoots, on 29 July 2016 - 08:27 AM, said:

View PostLorraine, on 28 July 2016 - 11:51 AM, said:

View PostBoots, on 28 July 2016 - 11:35 AM, said:

I was violently assaulted by a skateboarder.  He knocked me over, called me a bitch and then rode away like an a**hole.  It was terrifying.
I think that would be traumatizing if it happened to me too.

Have you recovered, or are you still shaken up?
It is traumatizing.  I will probably need to see a therapist.  This was verbal and physical abuse.

That incident sounds awful.  Were you able to call the police, or campus security?  They might be familiar with the individual, even if you didn't get much of a look at him.
It didn't happen at school.  I don't want to involve the police.  That would only make it worse.  The police force in my city is one of the most corrupt organizations in the country.  They beat up ordinary citizens every week.  They have also been known to kill innocent people.
That really sounds horrible.  I was wondering that when I asked you - I know some police departments are helpful and others can be just the opposite. I'm so sorry.  :hug2:     Your idea of perhaps seeing a therapist is a good one. A close friend was violently mugged in a major city recently and started going to therapy for it, it turns out she is dealing with a form of post traumatic stress from the incident.




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