Lorraine, on 30 November 2017 - 03:57 PM, said:
We live in a very sick world. We've always had sexual deviants, but we seem to have more of them now. I attribute that to the internet.
Before, you had to make an effort to find out about this stuff and risk the possibility of someone actually seeing you go into the local "adult book store" (which is what they used to call the places that had little booths in the back where you could go and watch your porn peep shows and do other stuff).
Today, you can have all this and more in the comfort of your own home. No one will ever have to know. Not even your wife. Until, of course, the police come in and seize your computer for having child porn on it.
I feel like me and you would be able to fill libraries with stories and our thoughts on all this.
Honestly you all saw me fall apart in an ugly way this year. Its been an odd sort of release seeing the media bite these bastards like this. Even more gratifying is seeing certain names pop up and be torn apart.
These men are not artists. They are flesh and blood heathens.
One in particular who hurt me bad has really been torn apart. I have spent years having anxiety attacks at the mere mention of a movie I know he starred in. Why? I loved it and I was passionate about it. When my agent in London told me I got a chance to meet him at the theatre he was a director of at the time my heart soared. I was a day shy of 17. A day.
Lets say turning 17 was heartbreaking. I still shudder at all this. How could I have been so naive and so impressionable at that age? I was no stranger to abuse before modelling. These men...and women...yes women...they know what sort of person to look for.
I was and still am in many ways emotionally vulnerable. It scares me how I can fall for the most obvious creep and not realise it. It scares me still how I rush to defend several of my abusers when it comes to the legal side of things.
But that is why in my present I have sought help.
But so many never get help. A big reason is they get blamed for causing the abuser to act in such a way.
I was told by the police my reputation suggested I was a rent boy. Is that even legal in my country? I have no idea but I almost got in trouble.
They knew how to cover their tracks.
Amd now all of a sudden everyone is actung like this is a shocking surprise. Its mostly the world of acting at this point, but give it time. I hope to see the world of fashion shake.